For most of my life, I carried stories that felt heavy.
Stories of childhood trauma.
Stories of violence.
Stories of broken relationships.
Stories of loss and regret.
There were moments when I believed these stories defined me.
I believed I was damaged.
I believed I was a bad mother.
I believed my past disqualified me from my dreams.
I remember looking in the mirror…
and not liking the woman looking back at me.
Not because of what I saw on the outside…
but because of what I believed on the inside.
I saw someone who had made mistakes.
Someone who had failed.
Someone who wasn’t enough.
Maybe you’ve had a moment like that too—
standing in front of a mirror,
being your own worst critic.
But what I didn’t realize then…
was that I wasn’t seeing myself the way God saw me.
Because God didn’t see a broken woman.
He saw someone still standing.
Still trying.
Still worthy of love.
And if you’ve ever felt that way, please hear this:
You are not who your mistakes say you are.
You are who God says you are.
Now, at 68 years old, I refuse to accept the old narrative.
I’ve learned something powerful:
Pain and beauty can exist in the same place.
I grew up in an environment where there was trauma…
But there was also talent.
There was brokenness… but also gifts.
There was fear… but also faith.
My father had hands that could hurt,
but those same hands created beautiful art, elegant handwriting, and music.
My mother carried deep wounds,
yet she was a dancer, a pianist, a singer, a seamstress, and a wonderful cook.
I inherited both pain and beauty.
And I had to make a choice.
I chose to hold on to the beauty.
The beauty of life.
The beauty that still existed, even in broken places.
As a child, survival meant learning to read people.
But I didn’t learn to hate them.
I learned to ask,
“What happened to them to make them this way?”
That question changed my heart.
Instead of building walls of bitterness,
I began building bridges of understanding.
That doesn’t mean I excuse harmful behavior.
It means I refuse to let hatred take root in my soul.
Throughout my life, I experienced abuse, broken trust, family pain, loss, and even suicide.
There were seasons when anxiety overwhelmed me—
paralyzing me to the point where I wouldn’t even leave the house.
And even today, anxiety still tries to return.
But now… I pray.
And I sing.
Prayer calms my soul.
Singing reminds me that I am alive.
Singing reminds me that hope still exists.
Praying and singing connect me to my faith—
and to freedom.
Even in my darkest moments, God was there…
even when I didn’t fully recognize it.
My healing came through prayer and song.
I used to believe my worth depended on being perfect.
I remember getting an A- in choir instead of an A and being told I wasn’t good enough.
I made mistakes as a mother, and I labeled myself “terrible.”
When relationships failed, I blamed my identity.
But I have learned something that changed everything:
Mistakes don’t define me.
Trauma doesn’t define me.
Other people’s brokenness doesn’t define me.
And it doesn’t define you either.
What I’ve walked through didn’t break me—it led me.
It led me to create, share, speak, and believe.
This journey is what led me to believe…
to begin creating pieces of jewelry,
to write a heartfelt quote,
to start a blog—
and now, a YouTube channel.
My pain became my purpose.
All because God placed this truth in my heart—
a truth I could not ignore,
a truth I could not keep to myself.
And maybe your story is doing the same for you…
Maybe it’s shaping something inside you that you don’t even see yet.
Maybe the very things that tried to break you
are the very things that are building something within you.
And the message God placed on my heart
is the same one I share with you:
Find Good in Everything, Everyday, in Everyone, in Every Situation.
Today, I choose to see the good in people.
I choose to understand before I judge.
I choose compassion over criticism.
I choose curiosity over hatred.
But I also choose boundaries.
Seeing good in others does not mean allowing harm.
Forgiving does not mean forgetting wisdom.
Grace and strength can live together.
I am here today not as a perfect woman,
but as a woman who survived.
I survived chaos.
I survived shame.
I survived abuse.
I survived loss.
I survived guilt.
And I still choose gratitude.
If there is one message I want you to take from my life, it is this:
No matter what you have been through…
Look for the good.
Look for the light.
Look for the gift inside the pain.
Because sometimes the very things that tried to break you
are the very things that shape your purpose.
I am proof that trauma does not have the final word.
Grace does.
God does.
And maybe… your story is not finished yet.
If you are still in the middle of your story, please hear this:
Your past does not define you.
Your pain does not disqualify you.
You are still loved.
You are still chosen.
And God is not finished with you yet.
As I reflect on my life, I recognize that my journey has not only affected me—it has affected others.
There were moments when I failed.
Moments where I chose poorly.
Moments where my actions caused pain.
I have gone to the people I could reach and offered apologies.
Some received them.
Some needed time.
And some relationships remain unresolved.
To anyone who experienced hurt because of my immaturity, my selfishness, my trauma responses, or my fear—
I am truly sorry.
Not to erase the past,
but to acknowledge it
and take responsibility for my part.
I understand that forgiveness is personal.
And whether forgiveness has been granted or not,
I have chosen accountability.
I have chosen growth.
And I will continue to choose it—every day.
So wherever you are in your story…
keep looking for the good.
Because it is there…
Even here.
Even now.